Yesterday was a pretty tough day here, we lost our cat Clementine, he was hit and killed on the road. I was on the phone with my mom and I heard my husband talking with someone at the door, I heard the word cat and I ran down the stairs, I can't even remember if I'd hung up the phone at that point. I tore down the driveway running past my husband and this woman to the road and there he was was lifeless on the edge of the road. I scooped him up in my arms and cried, I couldn't believe he was gone. I carried him to the house sobbing, my husband and the woman walking with me, she was in tears too, I touched her arm and told her through my tears that it was okay, it was an accident and she couldn't help it, it wasn't her fault. I didn't want her to feel bad. I continued on into the house and at that time our daughter knew something awful had happened and was in tears as well. I sat on the stairs cradling Clementine in my arms, heart breaking at the fact that he was no longer alive.
Clementine was a special cat and he was different, he was more dog than he was cat, his personality was huge. Part of our deep love for Clementine was the fact that he was a stray that we were able to tame. One December day in 2011 I found him in the hay shed and he wasn't very friendly but over time that changed and he entered our home and our hearts, you can read about it here.
Some may think he's just a cat, just an animal but I always go back to the creation story, God created all the creatures that moved upon the land and when He was finished He said it was good. Clementine was God's creation as well. And the LORD gave man dominion over His creation and we are to look after it. All of creation matters to God. I know God knew Clementine would be taken from us yesterday. I am reminded of the verse in Matthew where Jesus says to his disciples: "Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father." In Luke's gospel it says of the sparrows, "Yet not one of them is forgotten by God." God knows all that will happen in our lives and in His creation.
So God knew Clementine would be hit by that car yesterday and his life would be no more but there was a blessing for me in yesterday as well, a gift that reminded me that I have a Father in heaven who loves me and who knows me. You see I love taking pictures, I love capturing the beauty of God's creation and there are many mornings where I'll head out early to capture the morning light as it glistens on the dew covered plants. Though in the last number of weeks I hadn't been out because it just didn't work out or the weather wasn't so great. But Tuesday morning was beautiful, there was a heavy dew and the sun was shining and I had time to grab my camera and just wander the yard and guess who wandered with me as he often does...Clementine. Where I wandered, he wandered, I even snapped some shots of him not knowing that 90 minutes later he'd be gone. And so I feel blessed to have had that one last time with him but there is also sadness that I'll never have that again.
The last picture I took of Clementine, Tuesday morning at 8:00.
There were times when I would walk through the woods with my camera and he'd follow me all the way through, that's why we always said he was more dog than cat. Looking back through pictures of him I have so many because he followed me so many times as I took pictures. He was one photogenic guy. There were times when I did chores or the girls did chores and he'd hang out with us, we'd put him on the hay bale in the wheelbarrow and he'd ride down the hill. Jumping in bed with us or any of the kids it wasn't good enough to lay at your feet in his own space, no he needed contact and would wedge himself right near you or when sleeping with Jocelyne he'd hog the bed. He loved to be near us. He was a joy to have around, he was hilarious at times in the way he'd just flake out in crazy positions falling asleep. So many times one of the kids or I would say: "Shhh, come here, look at Clementine," and there you'd see him all sprawled out. He brought life to our home. One of his favourite morning things was to wait "impatiently" until the kids were finished their cereal knowing that they'd let him lick up that bit of left over milk or Matthew would just pour him his own and they'd eat breakfast together. Clementine was a handsome cat, a big cat. Our Korean friend who had just been visiting with us nick named him "Baby Tiger." A big cat with big personality.
He'll be missed deeply by all of us...it's still hard to believe the cat who had so much life is now gone.
Part two can be read here
But even in the midst of sorrow and sadness there are still things to be thankful for...
43. Misun's joy in being here - to her it is a dream come true - surreal
44. Beautiful cloud filled sky
45. The celebration of life of an aunt who lived her life well for God's glory
46. Matt helping me with a wedding - proud of him
47. The use of my mom's washer as ours is broken
48. Misun's smile
49. A beautiful sunset - something I take for granted that Misun rarely sees in Seoul Korea
51. Junior the duckling is still alive after her ordeal with our dog
52. Delicious Korean dinner made by Misun
53. The beauty of the country
54. Beautiful drive in the county
55. Hollyhocks along the roadside
56. Laugher with Misun
57. Henrietta the duck - entertaining to watch
58. Break in humidity
59. Misun is feeling better
60. Beautiful cool morning
61. My family
63. Beautiful architecture - Casa Loma
64. Cool breeze through the window
65. Jesus is more than enough
66. Sunshine at the end of the day
67. A new day
68. The girls out on a camping trip
69. Bonfire with some families from church
70. Children laughing and playing
72. The girls home safe
73. Morning fog
74. Beautiful cloud filled sky
75. The quiet of night time
76. The smell of freshly cut grass
77. Charissa going to the airport to pick up Jocelyne
78. Jocelyne is home for a week
79. Thunderstorms on a Sunday afternoon
80. Visit with Will and Amy - six more days!
81. Chatting with the girls after church
82. The love of my husband
83. Morning sunshine glistening on the trees after the rain
84. Misun is back from Cuba
85. Fun photoshoot with Misun, Jocelyne and Charissa
86. Bonfire with the girls - laughter
87. Good nights sleep
88. Girls out canoeing
89. The scent from a room filled with flowers
90. Wedding preparations
91. Our son William - a good man
92. My husband's leadership
93. Beautiful words from family and friends at the bridal couple at the rehearsal dinner
94. A bit of quiet
95. Beautiful weather for Will & Amy's wedding
96. Beautiful Christ centred wedding ceremony
97. All the help from family and friends
98. Cooling breezes at the sand dunes
99. Sushi lunch with Misun
100. Picnic along the water
101. Misun's smile and laughter
102. A delicious dinner and quiet night with my husband
103. Coffee with my husband and a friend
104. Visit with Joyce and Hilco - Amy's parents
105. Will and Amy back from their honeymoon stopping by for a visit
106. Kids back from the cottage
107. Chatting and hanging out with the kids
109. Sitting with Charissa in the Lazyboy
110. Misun back from her trip to Ottawa
111. Nightly teas and chats with Misun
112. A wonderful visit with Misun - goodbye's today as she heads home to Seoul Korea
113. Beautiful, traditional bow by Misun to my husband and I and my parents before leaving for the airport
114. Matt and Charissa hanging out
115. Misun made it home safely
116. Beautiful cool morning
117. Morning dew sparkling in the sunshine
118. Phone call from Misun
119. Clementine...a special cat like no other
120. The gift of one last wander in the yard with camera in hand and Clementine at my heels.